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Slacking Off

I have been blogging for more than a year and sharing the world about my experience with cancer. But after a while, I've reached to a phase where I ran out of ideas to blog.

Blogging my thoughts out only happens when I have something to blog about. But lately, I ran out of topic. Not that I'm bored to death but sometimes, there's nothing to blog about. Telling the world about your everyday chores is boring at times. Blogging about what your kids did today or yesterday can be fun but not everyday. So instead I turned to blog hopping. Reading other blogger's blogs.

So what should I blog about? My health is ok Alhamdulillah. My everyday life is already an open book for the world to read before this. So what's next? I don't know. It all depends on my mood and if I have a story to tell.

I've moved on with my life that sometimes I don't want to be reminded with what I had. But I can talk and share about it with people who wants to know. (For those who don't read blogs that is).

Well, what ever it is, this blog will stay active but only being updated as and when I have stories to share.

Selamat Berpuasa and Berbuka to all the Muslims readers. Have a good weekend.

You'll Be Fine

To my bestfriend,

I know you've been thinking about it since last week. As scary as it sounds, I know what you're going through. I can see the anxiety that you're feeling right now. Trust me, you'll be fine.

I'm confident that everything will be ok. Just have faith and be strong. What ever you're going through today, it will no longer haunt you anymore. The scan will tell you everything.

Praying for your health.

Lots of love,

MobileMom

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Puasa to all my readers. Semoga bulan ini membawa lebih berkat. Insya'ALLAH.

A Reminder To Us All

Something I thought I should share with my readers. Just a reminder to all that this illness can happen to anyone.

My intention is not to scare my readers. It's a prevention reminder that I'm trying to share with you.

Early prevention can save lives. It doesn't matter how old you are. Anything can happen.

Have a good weekend everyone and Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadhan. Selamat Berpuasa everyone.

Yoga 101

It's been a week since I last had a blog entry. I have been busy being lazy and procrastinating on some issues.

Anyway, I've signed up for a personal one to one yoga class with a yoga instructor. Going to the yoga classes at the gym is ok but it's not enough to help me with my problem. The main problem is my anxiety and panic attacks. IT's driving me up the walls sometimes.

Last week I attended the first class. There were only 3 of us. Each of us had our own problem to deal with. She knows my problem and the situation I'm facing now. The only advice she gave me is that I have to work double hard to get my breathing techniques correct. My breathing is shallow. I need to work on it. Well, what do you expect especially from a woman with one lung....*sigh*

It's About Time

It's about time the government is doing something about this!!!!!!

We read and hear this news EVERYDAY and yet nothing much is done. I hope they look into RAPE and road bullies seriously too . We don't feel safe anymore in our own country. Sometimes even in our own house. Why is this happening?

It got bad to worst. Everywhere we go, we don't feel safe anymore. I'm worried for my kids. I'm worried for my husband. I'm worried for my life. I'm worried about what will happen in the next couple of years if the crime rate increase.

This better work. They better not talk bullshit about this just to get our attention and showing us that they are doing something about it and yet the crime rate still increase.

Can we trust the law enforcement? We even read about policemen involving in crimes like robberies and rape cases, WTF? Military men and arm robberies, WTF? How can we feel safe anymore? Are those people really doing their job? Are you protecting the public? Women get raped and killed in bright day light. Robberies happening in shopping malls in bright day light. Snatch thieves doing their bloody snatch during bright day light and to some victim, it happened right in front of their own house. Where are the safety measures?

Hellooo GOVERNMENT, stop acting like monkeys and idiots and start looking into serious matters!!! Start appreciating those who worked hard and hello, they deserve some respect yah!! (Jangan cakap tak serupa bikin lah!) People are so fed up now. I am also fed up. My blog has never been about politics but today I let it all out because I just want to let it out. It's my blog and I have the right to blog. :P

F1 Talk

So the news is official. Michael Schumacher has announced he's retiring end of the season. It's about time. He's already in the History books of Formula 1 for most of his record breaking race. He's the champion among the champion!!

Now that Kimi is joining Ferarri for the next 3 years driving side by side with Massa, I hope to see more exciting race. However, it would be better if they put Kimi and Alonso in the same team. Then you'll see 2 most promising and talented drivers racing side by side in the same team.

Kubica proved us all that he is one rookie who can really drive fast. Congratulations to BMW Sauber Petronas for the 3rd placing. Not often you see a tall bloke driving an F1 car. Jacque Villeneuve, eat your heart out!! He can claim all he wants just because he was once a World Champion but he can't even put him self on the podium and blames the team for his failures. So, it's about time to give those new rookies a chance. Rookies like Rosberg and Kubica. They may not be driving in a fast car at the moment but they do have the talent when it comes to racing.

Happy retirement Michael Schumacher. It was fun seeing you race since I was introduced to this sports 7 years ago. I now have a new hero for Ferarri. Too bad Alonso is moving to McLaren though I wished it was also Ferarri. *sigh* You can't have it all. Well, if Schumacher maintain his consistancy through out the next 3 race and Alonso gets another 1 or 2 engine failures, he may well grab the title and retire at his peak. He's now 2 points behind the World Champion Alonso.

Ok enough of F1 talk.

Gotta go and entertain the kiddies. I'm stuck watching Animal Planet with my kids right now. I'm still feeling the loss of Steve Irwin because we've been stuck on this channel at home for the past couple of months. The kids just love watching this channel. *sigh* Too bad we didn't get the chance to go to Australia Zoo when we were in Australia last year. I was too weak to travel to that part of Oz land. I'm sure my kids would have loved seeing Steve Irwin in action. Ohh...Crickey!!!

Anxiety & Panic Attacks

Here's the thing about anxiety and panic attacks.

Anxiety attacks are not as bad as panic attacks. Anxiety attacks are mild and you are still in control. The symptoms are almost similar but panic attacks are more towards radical feelings and you may loose control of your self and your thoughts.

I get anxiety attacks all the time. It comes and goes as it likes. There's no warnings. You'll just feel the anxiety creeping inside of you quietly. You counter it by deep breathing, positive thoughts and "zikir" (prayers). Usually it will go away after 5-10 minute. You will still hate the feeling of it because it really spoils your day. Especially if you have plans.

Panic attacks on the other hand can be very uncomfortable. Usually it happens after going through trauma. Trauma can be anything ranging from illness to being terrified of something or someone. It depends on individual and their experience.

I had my first taste of very bad panic attack when I was in Dubai. Things changed since then. I get phobias of haze, smoke, smog, very loud noise, crowded areas and even being in public functions. I hate going through big jumble sales during weekends. Too many people and I hate the crowd.

Lost month I had a mild panic attack while watching PGL for the second time. We left during the break. Out of a sudden, my hands was shaking for no reason, my body felt different and I felt so lost and stress for no reason. I felt scared and I just wanted to run away from the auditorium. I knew it was a mild one because I have felt the worst before.

Now, I'm contemplating to go for this weekend's invitation because I don't want to go through another panic attack situation in the middle of the show. I won't know where to go or run. You don't want to be in my shoes. You don't like to be in my shoes when this happens. It does make me go beserk.

I'm having anxiety feeling right now because one of my bestfriend is diagnosed with pneumonia. We just met up 2 weeks back. In fact it was few days before her fever and symptoms started to surface. Couple of weeks back my BIL was also diagnosed with pneumonia. It's going around now. Is it the weather? I don't know.

Few years back, my husband's bestfriend was diagnosed with pneumonia too. We had a chat last night and it's scary to hear his experience. *mengucap* Here I am with one lung thinking of all this. Which I should not in the first place. But can't blame me for thinking about it in this case. *sigh*

Summary of My Week

Let see.........

• Celebrated my birthday with my family and close friends....
• Busy planning for a short trip with the kids during the school break but we never got to go anywhere because everyone in our house was down with a slight fever, flu and bad cough.
• Attended a friend's wedding at Istana Hotel. It was a grand wedding do. But nothing beats the recent so-called-fantasy-wedding-of-the-decade. Blearghhh!!
• Met up with our friend who was recently diagnosed with Breast Cancer. Gave her some moral support to boost up her confidence.
• Shocked by the news of Steve Irwin's death because hubby and I are always stuck on the Animal Planet Channel for the past 6 months. Our children are now into animals and under water creatures.
• My 2 year old niece was admitted to the hospital yesterday due to food poisoning.
• For the past two weeks, both my children and I are infected with Nail fungus. Ah well...life goes on. We're seeing the skin specialist to get it treated. Well, that's life.